On Saturday, we went through Yellowstone. When we got to the gate to pay, we found it was free park day. YAY! But then we found out that a bridge near the beginning of the park was closed so we would have to go around and wouldn't see the whole thing. So first we went to Old Faithful where we found out that the part of the park we were going through was closed because of a wild fire. Rangers were leading cars through, but they were not letting you back out so you would have to go out one of the other exits. So it's a really good thing it was free park day. We only saw one Buffalo all day, but we saw quite a few elk. The bulls were huge and one even bugled for us. Kelty was a really pleasant passenger and overall we had a really fun day. While we were in the park Matt stayed at the cabin to go fishing. He caught a huge one. It ways like 4 pounds and was like 20 inches or something like that. He was sooo excited and I am really proud of him.
So yesterday was the one year mark since my Bompa passed away, and two weeks will mark the day my great-grandpa Pete passed away. I have come to dread September the passed two years. After my great-grandpa passed away, I was sad but I handled it pretty well because we had been anticipating it for awhile and I had seen him two weeks earlier. My Bompa passing came as a total shock to everyone, and I have had a really hard time with it. I hadn't seen my Bompa in three months. This past year I have had days where I just wanted to ball and some days that I actually did, and then other days where I was over-joyed to finally be having a baby.
I was so impatient, I was wanting a baby soo bad. Bompa kept telling me to be patient. I have felt selfish at times because I felt like in order to have my baby, he had to pass away. I know it's not true, I just felt like if I had been patient, he still may be here. I know he held Kelty in heaven and I know she knows him, but I really want to be able to physically put her in his arms and see the joy in his face. He loved his family so much, anytime we could get together was a holiday for him. I loved going to the farm with him, that's where he taught me everything I know. I loved just being out there with Bompa, whether we were riding horses or just riding around checking on fences and counting cows.
It's so hard knowing that Nanny is living alone. I worry about her so much. I'm glad she comes to visit often it's so hard knowing that when she comes to visit he won't physically come with her, or when we go visit her. But we feel him everywhere. Sunday my daddy blessed Kelty and I saw him in the circle right next to my dad, for a moment I thought it was real.
My Bompa taught me sooo many lessons that I treasure and value, it breaks my heart that Kelty won't get to meet him and learn from him. He had a nickname for all of his grandkids, I am his "Bee", I wonder what would have been his name for Kelty. I know that death is just a part of life and that we will be together again and when Matt & I take our little family through the temple he will be right there sitting next to my dad and Nanny. I have no doubt he's proud of me for what I've accomplished and he will be exstatic when I make it to the temple.
I'm jealous of the people in heaven because now they get to learn from him. He was the best Sunday School teacher I've ever had the priviledge to learn from. That's why he had to leave the way he did, he had people to teach in heaven so that they could have eternal life also. When cousin Tracy met him there in May, Bompa said "What the heck are you doing here? But as long as you're here come take a seat. We have work to do."
There's are two songs that state how we feel really well they're called "Heaven Was Needing A Hero" and "You Were Just Here". These two songs helped me feel better sometimes.
Bompa I wish I could talk to you and get advice. I hear your voice all the time and I know I still get advice from you all the time. I know the advice I get from my dad comes from you too because you gave it to him once upon a time. I miss and love you. I know you're here in Spirit and your really only a prayer away.
I have like 4 1/2 weeks left, aka not soon enough! We are so excited and have so much anxiety at the same time. I am so uncomfortable, this baby likes to push on things she shouldn't and tries to move things around that don't move. I don't know how women do this like 20 times. I heard so many times that being pregnant is the most wonderful experience. I have quite a different opinion, but I know this is the only way and it's going to be worth it. 
These pics are from the Hill Air Force Base huge show that they did in early June. We parked at the high school below the base thinking it would be a short walk. It was totally not short. I think it was about 3 1/2 miles up hill one way. I was pretty impressed that I did it. I don't suggest walking that far when your eight months pregnant though. It's only been a few weeks and I know there's no way I could do it now.
So Matt's mom bought me my stroller/carseat and high chair this past weekend and Kelty's room is almost ready! I am so excited. I can't believe how soon she will be here, about 2 months! I did her room in butterflys and Winnie the Pooh, it's so adoreable. I stuck colorful cardstock on the wall in a random checkerboard pattern and cut out a few little phrases with my Cricut to go in the white spaces. This is so cheap, easy, and my landlord can't get mad cuz I DIDN'T paint. I can't wait to see his face when he walks by the window and see's a colored wall though. He's so uptight, it'll be so funny. On her other wall there's Winnie the Pooh frames that I crafted and layed out randomly, beneath those I wrote "Oh thank heaven for little girls!" Her crib has a canopy over it that I attached butterflys to and looks soo cute. I can't wait for her to get here, she is going to be so spoiled. I know because she is already.
We found out two weeks ago that we are having a little girl! She is so adorable and is very active. Everything is going good. Bri has realized she is one of the few women that have mild morning sickness for the whole nine months. If I am on my medicine I don't get sick, it's just irritating because we thought it would go away. We can't believe that she will be here in only a few months. The excitement and fear seem to cover each other up well. So it keeps us grounded, otherwise Bri might go crazy.
